CELEBRITY SAS star Lucy Spraggan broke down in tears as she opened up about her horrifying rape ordeal.
The 34-year-old singer is one of 14 famous faces taking part on the intense Channel 4 show.
In tonight’s episode, Lucy was called in for a chat with the staff to find out what she wanted to achieve from being there.
The conversation soon turned to the moment Lucy – then 21 – was raped by a hotel porter during production of The X Factor.
Lucy was competing on the ITV series in 2012 and made it through to the live shows.
But after a drunken night out with fellow competitor Rylan Clark for his 25th birthday, Lucy was raped by a hotel porter who had used a traceable key card to get back into her room while she was passed out.
Sharing her ordeal with the Celebrity SAS staff, as she started by explaining what she wanted to find out about herself.
She stammered: “Where I, where I…I’ve been broken so many times.”
She went on to explain how being on The X Factor was “everything I’d ever wished for”.
But then she moved on to the fateful night when her world changed and she said: “I was wasted, I was paralytic.”
“The hotel porter said ‘Oh I’ll give her a hand’ and I was paralytic. I passed out on the bed, so I can only tell you this stuff because of the information that I have been told.
“When that hotel porter came up to my room to do what not-nice people do to vulnerable women.”
Trying to keep her composure, she continued: “I woke up and I didn’t really know what…well, I knew what had happened but I didn’t know what to do.”
Thankfully, the fact the porter used a key card was what helped identify him as her rapist and he was arrested.
Lucy left the show soon after, with viewers having no idea about what really happened.
Recalling how she felt at that point, a tearful Lucy said: “It was tough, hard.”
It felt like everything was snatched away from me in a really brutal way.
Lucy Spraggan
She then hung her head as the tears finally burst out before she wiped her eyes and calmed down a little.
She then told the staff: “It was seven years of, like, trying to destroy myself. The amount of times I was blackout drunk, again, after that.
“I know that that’s what that was, I was just trying to shut everything out, but it felt like everything was snatched away from me in a really brutal way.
“And I was like ‘I haven’t done anything wrong’. And so, I was angry about that, I was angry that other people had music careers that were better than mine.
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“Or sad that I felt like I’d missed the boat. It all just got so heavy. I realised, I was like, ‘If I carry on doing this, I’m just going to die.”
Thankfully, Lucy was able to turn her life around and move forward and tied the knot with her photographer wife Emilia Smith last year.
She has also continued to release music and perform.
Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins continues tonight at 9pm on Channel 4, with all episodes available on demand for plus members.
