TIKTOK star Becki Jones has opened up on how she “didn’t want to be here anymore” ahead of her much-publicised departure from social media.
The 33-year-old internet personality opened up on her mental heath struggles and to quit over a year ago in a brand new interview.
Becki Jones was left in tears as she discussed her depression battle Credit: YouTube/@notmybagg
The star addressed her decision to quit social media last year Credit: Instagram
Getting candid, spoke on the Not My Bagg podcast as she addressed her social media exit in full.
She revealed she decided to stop posting videos after dreading the barrage of hate in her comments section and made the decision during a trip to Rome in Italy.
Becki said: “I got to the airport and basically had this big panic attack, and I’ve never suffered – I’ve had anxiety and stuff but not to that level. I had this big panic attack, I couldn’t breathe.
“And this was literally just landing in Italy, because I’d done this video, I’d done this like, ‘travel with me to Rome’ and I was just dreading editing it and posting it and seeing the comments on it.
Becki broke down on the podcast Credit: YouTube/@notmybagg
She eventually returned to social media with a new look Credit: Instagraam
“The final straw was when I couldn’t do everyday things there, you know, I was constantly shaking and panicking, I couldn’t breathe.
“My mum thought she would have to take me to a hospital at one point.
“It just triggered me so much. I think it was just the buildup of negativity.
“I think it just was a lot of pressure that was coming with it, and that was my breaking point. Seeing the vile comments about me, and my family.”
Becki later revealed she had been diagnosed with and anxiety and was left with some troubling thoughts.
Opening up even further: “I went to the doctors and got diagnosed with anxiety and depression. I think that’s when it hit me, I was like, ‘wow, I’ve got to take a tablet to feel better and I have to have this everyday’. It’s a horrible thing to go through.
“I just didn’t want to be here no more. I just didn’t want to be here, I didn’t want to do anything.
“If it weren’t for a few certain people in my life, I don’t think I would have made it through.
“These people made me question who I am and made me hate myself, I did hate myself.”
During Becki’s time away from social media, the star considerably slimmed down and lost weight – something which has become a hot topic online.
Becki has so far refused to reveal how exactly she lost the weight and confessed it was personal only to her.
She also found love with The Sun revealing how she had fallen for an ex-con.
Becki began romancing Chris Beattie during her social media break with The Sun telling how he pleaded guilty to possession of a controlled drug under section 5(2) of the Misuse of Drugs Act 1971 on the 7th September 2021 and was given a 12-month conditional discharge.
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