REALITY TV star Sam Vanderpump has emotionally opened up on fears that he “wouldn’t meet” his unborn child after his tragic end-stage liver diagnosis.
The TV personality, best known for his role on the show Made in Chelsea, stunned his fans when he
Sam Vanderpump became emotional when discussing his liver diagnosis on We Need To TalkCredit: YouTube/We Need To Talk
The star has been open about his health woesCredit: Not known, clear with picture desk
He is currently expecting his first child with fiancee, Alice, 24Credit: Instagram
The 28-year-old, who is and , revealed that he won’t survive five years without getting a transplant in heartbreaking scenes on the long-running show.
He has now got more candid than ever before during a conversation with and MAFS expert Paul C. Brunson on his We Need To Talk podcast.
In a heartbreaking confession, he confessed he had been forced to confront the possibility of never meeting his child.
Sam, whose own father has passed away, recalled how his thoughts about him never being able to meet his grandchild had switched to him potentially never meeting his child.
The TV star said: “I always get sad when I think my dad’s never going to see his grandchild.
“To now start having that thing dawned on you. Am I going to see my child? That’s terrifying.”
He became teary when he spoke about his condition and how it had affected his life with Paul.
Confirming he had only discovered the severity of his condition over the past few months, he revealed his trauma had blocked out just exactly when he was informed he needed a transplant – a feeling he has likened to blocking out the date in which his father passed.
The nephew of of Beverly Hills legend said: “You know, there’s something interesting that’s just dawned on me, you know how you remember dates?
“I don’t remember the date [of being told he needed a transplant]. And you know what’s interesting? I never remembered my dad’s passing date because I blocked it out.
“And it’s only in the past few years I now remember my dad’s passing date, and now I don’t remember this date.
“Is it because it’s trauma related and that’s just something that dawned on me there?
“I don’t remember the day, it could have been eight weeks ago, ten weeks ago, 12 weeks ago. I think you kind, when you have that trauma you block it out right? So somewhere 2 or 3 months ago in that vicinity.”]
He added: “I got this notification on the app. Alice is at work. I’m home alone and I go, oh, it’s a letter from King’s College.
“I get a letter after every appointment. I open it up and it’s literally a four line letter. And it goes ‘Dear Sam, after reviewing your latest CT scan, these are in line with your condition, we’re sending you for a liver transplant assessment.’
“I mean, that was, yeah, receiving that I think your heart. Yeah. Your heart stops, your tummy drops. Yeah.
“Fear. Yeah. Terrified, am I going to die?”
Sam spoke candidly on the Paul C. Brunson podcastCredit: YouTube/We Need To Talk
He rose to fame on Made in ChesleaCredit: Channel 4
He further revealed that he had suffered a “breakdown” in the weeks that followed going public with his news as he finally came to terms with what he was facing.
Sam said on the podcast: “I mean, I had a breakdown. I think it was a couple weeks ago. I decided to talk about this for these reasons. I went, I’m gonna do my thing and raise awareness. It’s just what you should do.
“I was expecting to do it on , do a bit of media and that would be it. And I really did expect that.
“So what ensued was the fact eight weeks later, I’d processed it or compartmentalised it for now, dealt with it. And this media storm we talked about earlier hit.”
Revealing his new-found optimism, Sam confirmed that his treatments will help him to live a “long and happy life”.
He added: “And in all truth, a liver transplant is extremely successful. So I’m going to be here for my son. I know that.
‘And there are those fears. But you know, the context is I’m healthy now. My liver might not be good for four or five years.
“But I’m going to have this liver transplant and everything’s going to be fine. I will live a long, happy life.”
He has now revealed his treatment plan going forwardCredit: Instagram/samvanderpump 
