Jason Isaacs had a “decades-long love affair with drugs”.
The 57-year-old actor has an “addictive personality” and by the age of 16, he’d already been abusing alcohol and turned his attention to illegal substances, and refused to listen to pleas to stop for almost 20 years.
He said: “I was convinced no one came from the same twisted, dark, cracked mould as I did, so advice from anybody else was coming from normal people from the normal world.
“What could they possibly understand about me and the noise in my head? I was terminally unique.
“I’ve always had an addictive personality and by the age of 16 I’d already passed though drink and was getting started on a decades-long love affair with drugs. Every action was filtered through a burning need I had for being as far from a conscious, thinking, feeling person as possible.
“No message would get through for nearly 20 years.”
The ‘Harry Potter’ actor – who has two daughters with wife Emma – was just 12 years old when he got drunk for the first time at a wedding, and despite getting injured when he fell, the incident wasn’t enough to put him off alcohol.
He told Big Issue magazine: “The barman, who we thought at the time was a hero and I now realize belonged in prison, sneaked us a full bottle of Southern Comfort.
“We drank the entire thing in the toilet, then staggered out into the party, reeling around farcically. I vomited, fell on and pulled down a giant curtain, snogged a girl, god bless her… ran out into the street, vomited again, tripped, smashed my head open on the pavement and gushed blood all over my clothes.