ANDY GRAY revealed he almost killed himself after his Sky Sports sacking over the sexism scandal.
The former Scotland international, 66, opened up on his “dark place” in his interview with Piers Morgan.
Gray was axed after making derogatory comments off-air about female assistant referee Sian Massey-Ellis.
Gray and colleague Richard Keys questioned female officials’ competency in 2011.
Keys was recorded saying: “Somebody better get down there and explain offside to her (Massey).”
Gray replied: “Yeah, I know. Can you believe that? Female linesman. Forget what I said – they probably don’t know the offside rule.”
Keys added: “Course they don’t.”
Gray then responded: “Why is there a female linesman? Somebody’s f***** up big.”
Speaking to Morgan for TalkTV, the ex-Aston Villa, Wolves and Everton striker admitted he had suicidal thoughts.
Gray said: “‘I suddenly found myself in a really dark place.
“I knew I had done something wrong, of course I did, but I couldn’t compute it.
“My head was gone. If it wasn’t for my wife I don’t know what would have happened.
“I was close to going down the garden, I had a pond, with a bottle and a few pills one day. I was that bad.
“People who know me will think I’m kidding… horrible [time]. I couldn’t work it out.
“For two weeks I couldn’t leave the house, just surrounded by press and media. Really weird – but I’m through it now.
“You learn who your friends are when things like that happen. But we’re through it now, and I’m through it now!”
Gray was reluctant to name the people who gave the most support but added: “I was sitting in the kitchen one day, my head was all over the place, and next minute the gates open and this motorbike rider comes down the drive, he’s got an extra helmet under his arm and he comes screeching in, and it’s Andy Townsend!
“He said, ‘Come on, I’m getting you out of here!’ I said ‘No, I can’t,’ and he said, ‘Yeah come on, put this helmet on we’ll get to the gate and do a runner.’ That’s the kind of friend that was there.
“But there were various people who I looked after in various ways, that I never heard from, and probably never heard from in 20 years.”
Gray and Keys relocated to the Middle East following their Sky Sports departures.
And the latter also admitted he had mental health struggles too.
He said: “Yes, I was there too.
“Piers you have no idea – he’s right, you can’t explain, you look back now with a clear head and you go, ‘What you thinking.’”
